Goodbye for Now

As of today, I am taking a break from this blog for an undetermined amount of time. There has been no drama, no hate mail, no privacy issues. In short, I realized I have made time on my computer an idol in my life. I've put it before the Lord and my time with Him. I didn't mean to, but little by little, I have given it priority. I started this as a way to update friends and family on our adoption process. Then it became a place to write out my grief after we lost Cy, a place to show people that believers can grieve and still love the Lord (even if not using all the cliches the church so often uses). I praised Him in my grief, and I praised Him in our gratitude after Cy came home. From there, my readership grew, and I had dreams of becoming a mommy blogger who could make some money doing this thing I love. I could write like I love to do and make some money through ads. Recently, my blog stats have gone up and advertisers have started contacting me directly, but in that same time, God also contacted me directly about my priorities. His voice drowns out all others.

I really enjoy connecting with people in the "outside world," especially on days when the boys are driving me nutty. I like telling you funny stories about the boys, my thoughts on adoption, and whatever else is on my mind. More than that, I like to hear what you have to say back to me. Your comments and emails have been so meaningful to me over the last 2.5 years. Thank you for spending time here, for loving me on my bad days, and for giving me a chance to write and be vulnerable in these years. I don't know if I'll come back or not. I'll see what God says about that.

If you have any questions for me (adoption, family, painting, etc), please email me at mbwc@cox.net. Also I will continue to update my painting blog as I fill orders.

"I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,
may have power, together with all the saints,
to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,
and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—
that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."
Ephesians 3:17-19